my job makes me fat.

So today was going pretty good, until I got to work. My starbucks just got a warming oven and we begin selling sandwiches on monday. SOOOOO all the partners were sampling the sandwiches and putting other pastries in the oven ALL FREAKIN WEEKEND. I had about 500-600 calories just at work today (add that to the 150 cal I had this morning). I was planning to have about 800 cal today anyway, because I need to be strong for karate in the morning, but having all that crap made me feel disgusting.

A girl I work with who is trying to lose 20 pds (she doesn't really need to lose that much btw. psh) and I made a pact to not have starbucks pastries/sandwiches for a month starting tomorrow so that'll keep me away from temptation when there's so many samples around :S

I'm about to get on the treadmill for a thirty minute damage-control run. I don't want to get crazy anorexic here, just lose five pounds or so...I would NEVER call myself pro-ana because I don't think anyone should become anorexic, but here I am. I freakin made this forum. What a hypocrite, huh? So girls, don't go crazy on me. Don't lose so much that it's life-threatening. This isn't a forum to kickstart girls into anorexia. It's for girls who are already in this mess. I hope that made some sense.

Treadmill, here I come.

ps- If you want to post how your day went, go ahead and start a new topic in this section (Ana Chronicles). Don't forget to post a reply in the Challenges section with your Height, HW, CW, LW, GW. Have a glorious day

Haha that's why I've always avoided food-service jobs like the plague. I'm fine when food isn't around, but if I'm constantly around it I know I'll cave. It's also too bad that Starbucks isn't nearly as gross as full-service restaurants in what happens in the kitchen. I know that my friends that worked as waiters often refused to eat the food from their restaurants because of the disgusting stuff that goes on behind the scenes.

Luckily for me, I work in a lab and food isn't even allowed to be in the room And since we all do a lot of things that are very time-dependent and we can't stop in the middle of doing something, a ton of people work through lunch. Even with that luxury, I still have the days I don't work to deal with :/

Lucky you! What kind of job is it exactly? Sounds like something smart

And you know, when I first started at starbucks, I went crazy because of the free drinks and had an extra caramel caramel frapp. every day. Ten pounds later, I realized I should probably back off on the drinks. Since then, the only problem has been the pastries

So I just got off the treadmill and for some reason, I just couldn't do my usual. I was about to die, and it's not like I haven't eaten today (see above). I usually run 6.5 m/hr for 20-30 minutes plus a six minutes warm up/cool down. Today, after ten minutes, I had to stop and then I lowered it to 6 m/hr MEEHH I hate my life. I hate feeling like I didn't do well enough.

ANYWAYS, homework time.