Ana Challenge: Day Three

Well, one pound down. I just realized something today. I'm technically at my minimal weight for having my period (120pds). When I weighed this much before, I didn't work out at all because I wasn't allowed to at the time, so I must have had a higher fat percentage.

Currently, I'm running a few times a week and doing karate twice a week. I know I definitely have more muscle and I'm in better shape than when I weighed 120 two years ago. Therefore, I have less of a fat percentage?

I'm just wondering if it'll make losing weight (fat, not muscle) more difficult than it was in the past.

Well, I'm going to try. I'm actually pretty happy at this weight. I want to lose the rest of those five pounds to act as a buffer zone so I'll look better in my tinsy strapless black bridesmaid dress. It's a super cute dress (surprisingly, since most bridesmaid dresses are horrific) and I want to look my best.

Yay Eponine! I think having more muscle on you ought to make losing the fat easier, and since muscle is denser than fat, it's pretty much a given that you're thinner now than the last time you were at 120.

As for me, it's the first day of my period, when my body hangs on to every drop of water I ingest. I'm not even going to weigh myself today because that'd just be mean. I've been eating badly today, but I have class tonight so I'll pack myself dinner to look like I'm eating and toss it on campus to make up for it.

On the plus side, I'm on a new birth control that I think is making me ever-so-slightly nauseous. I hope it keeps making me feel a little sick, it makes not eating so much easier.

Haha I write things like that then read them and think about how nuts I am. Gotta love Ana.

Starting weight: 118
Current weight: 116 (yesterday)
Goal weight: 105

That's so weird! I just started my period today too! It's not a full period...I won't go into an explanation because it's kind of gross, but yes. No wonder I've been feeling bloaty and gross and craving sweets!

I did really well today. I had only had 250 cal up until 8pm. For some reason, that's when I'm the most hungry. First of all, a friend who works at cold stone brought me some chocolate batter ice cream with brownie. It was a small and I shared but I still felt disgusting after eating it so I threw it up. Then, I got hope and there was some noodles my mom made for me with vegatables. I ended up eating that which wasn't A LOT of food but probably around 300 cal. AND THEN my mom also went out of her way to get me frozen yogart which I LOVE. i ate half of it which was about 4oz and calorie wise, that's about 100 cal. Did I mention I ate a bagel thin with weight watchers cream cheese tonight as well (150cal)? I really binged! Stupid period!!!!

So I'd say I probably had around 800 cal tonight...maybe more. Gosh. Failure today. As long as I don't gain I'll be happy. Tomorrow I'll start over and aim for 500.

I'm pretty disappointed in myself. I purged today for the first time in like a week.

It was totally needed though; the first half of my day went great foodwise (oatmeal in the morning, carrots for lunch) but then I started feeling intense fatigue. Like, passing out at my desk at work at 1 pm fatigue. So I skipped out of work early (I love how lax my job is) and immediately crashed into bed once I got home. When I woke up after 3 pm, I was STILL exhausted, so I ate.

And ate. Anything sweet and carby entered my mouth. Such a disappointment.

Sooo I obviously got rid of all (most) of that, then I made myself a big cup of french vanilla tea with Splenda to continue satisfying my sweets cravings and to rehydrate after the purge.

I promise to weigh myself tomorrow morning! Plus I have work and school tomorrow so it'll be easy to avoid temptations, since I'll be out of the house and busy til 10 pm.

How is everyone else doing? Eponine and I seem to be the only ones writing here haha.

I'm pretty disappointed with myself. I'm only down one pound so far this week.
Calorie wise, I've been doing pretty good. I had 400 yesterday and over 1000 today, but I burned them all off at a concert, so I ended up leveling out. I've had tons of water, too.
My goal for tomorrow is 300-500, I think. That sounds like a good number.

That is so weird that you girls started today. I did too. *shifty eyes*

That sucks, Karson! I hate throwing up!
Yes, weird thing about the period starting thing...
Today I did absolutely horrible. I had 1000 calories...maybe more. And I still feel really hungry. It was just one thing after another.
Tomorrow, I plan to eat at tops, 300 cal. we'll see how that goes. Friday I'll be eating normally so I guess I'm kind of making up for it by eating practically nothing tomorrow. meh.
I'm so stressed out right now. Deadlines coming up and yet again, I'm horrible at managing my time.
I feel fat. I feel like a total failure. and I hate myself for it.

Aww stressful times do terrible things to my willpower. Stay strong, Eponine! I'm sure you'll do great on all the things you have to do.

I had to have dinner with my dad tonight, but I was able to burn off 600 calories by walking my dog for 30 minutes, running 2 miles on the treadmill, and doing the elliptical for 30 minutes at my gym.

Tomorrow is blessedly full, with work then class, so I should be good. If I have any lag time between, I'll go to the mall and look for a new bikini to reward myself with once I reach my goal. Nothing makes you want to not eat like staring at yourself in bikinis!

scratch that- i just binged on cereal (three different kinds, mind you), yogart, and a cheesestick. Not the worst stuff to binge on, but regretful nonetheless.

maybe i'll go bikini shopping tomorrow too. that'll really motivate me. good luck, karson!

i had a big cross country meet today so i ran a little more than 2.5 miles - but i was a hard 2.5 miles so i had a major binge after it.
including macca's!! ewww!
i plan on having half a grapefruit for breakfast, nothing for morning tea, and 80 calorie yogurt for lunch, nothing for afternoon tea and i'm going out tomorrow night so who knows what i'll have for dinner.
still don't think i'm getting anywhere.
losing weight can be really hard but i want to be skinny so bad!!
guess i just have to stick at it.
keep going girls, it sounds like you're all making progress.

um yea i havent been doing good at all but i kno that tomoro im going to restart....im going out later to eat and i have a full day of work and i know that i need to eat but i think ive been eating a lot because of stress from graduating...which was yest but now im free so i can exercise and ill be able to hide it better